I can't believe the wait is almost over. Tomorrow marks week 12 for these two little 'goobers' inside me, which all women know is a BIG DEAL. It marks the end of the first trimestre. It marks the culmination of many weeks of forming key organs and setting the stage for the growth phases. If all is not well now, then it won't ever be.
It's a scary thought.
And I am personally very happy that I have my IPS (Integrated Prenatal Screening) ultrasound on Monday afternoon in order to confirm, for the THIRD time now, that all is well and looks healthy. After three miscarriages, you just really don't let yourself TRULY beleive that this thing will actually work out, ya know?
Which brings me to the title of this post. I don't know about you, but I look forward to a time when I won't feel compelled to take a look after going to the washroom. A very personal topic, certainly, but every woman, previous miscarriage or not, will 'get' what the 'swipe and see' is all about. And you can read all the books and articles you want that tell you a bit of spotting is okay, but for me?...spotting has led EVERY TIME to the loss of my baby.
But. This time? All clear.
And so, too, will my mind be come Monday night. I can just feel it. All will be well, and I can start to bond with these two little miracles inside me. I can be a happy future Mommy. I am crying with relief and happiness at the thought of it. It has been a long 12 weeks.
smiling inside for you!
ReplyDeleteI am so happy for you.
ReplyDeleteI think every mom does this, but you must be plagued by this a zillion times more. You'll settle...promise. And two bouncies babies will soon make their appearance. Hey- when is your big ultrasound when we get to know genders?
ReplyDeleteI guess it will be our next one - usually after 16 weeks, but closer to 20 it is more definitive...but that is if both babies are cooperating to give us a peek! Of course, if we decide to go ahead with an amnio, we'll know the sex that way...but that's still very much undecided.
ReplyDeleteI held my breath most of my 1st pregnancy after experience a miscarriage, so I know how you feel. It's amazing how many women have had them.
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